We have established in previous conversations that the litigation support field can be demanding on our time and our stress level. I recently had a really bad week where I struggled to stay positive. My personal life, my day job and my passions all collided in negative ways. I am sharing my story because I know that there are others that have similar situations and it can be tough to deal with.
To begin with, I had two productions in two different matters, both with Friday deadlines. Usually, I have wonderful attorneys to work with and they give me plenty of time to get the finalized production set to the vendor, who in turn has plenty of time to prepare the production and get it back to me. For one of the matters, this was the case. However, for the second matter, the timeline was not met, extra QC steps were required and there was too much negativity for my tastes. Lucky for me, my vendor kicked butt and we met the Friday deadline in the end. For me, it was overly stressful and negative where it didn't need to be. I prefer to work around team oriented people.
During this same week, I had multiple people e-mailing me about Women in eDiscovery tasks that they wanted me to complete. Everyone in Women in eDiscovery management positions knows that all of the positions are voluntary and in this industry we can easily get busy at work or we can experience a “life event” that adds extra pressure. I had both this particular week. I felt like I was letting them down, but there was only so much I could do.
The weekend prior to this week, my 13 year old dog got sick. I spent Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday of this week worrying about her, taking her to the doctor, waiting on test results and finally having to drive her to the emergency hospital and make the tough decision to put her down. It was made even tougher because I was just there a few months ago making the same decision for my 9 year old dog. Luckily, I still have a 4 year old dog to keep me company.
To add insult to injury, I had my first horrible situation with one of my students in the class that I teach on Thursday evening. One of the students got frustrated, stormed out of the class and then returned to hash it out some more. I have never had a student treat me with such disrespect. At that point, I was so torn down and I just needed to go home. I really appreciated the e-mails I received from several students apologizing on behalf of their class mate.
We all have moments like these in our life where it feels like we can't catch a break, or where too many negative things happen within a short timeline. Personally, I enjoy hugs. I also have some really good friends who provide support and encouragement. One of the most important things we need to remember is that things will get better and everything happens for a reason even if we don't understand what it is at the time.
Don't be afraid to reach out and ask for help or support or encouragement. Don't hold it all inside — it's not healthy. You can only do your best and hope others will understand. When things are going well for you, be sure to give back and help others if you can.
I want to thank those that helped me through this particular week, you know who you are.